+2 Sam.
Forlorn you seem to be posting stuff like that a little bit as of late. I've been up and down that road myself and although I didn't end up with a very receptive therapist, everyone is different and just ask yourself "why not" instead of "why". Can't hurt to try someone out and see how it goes. Anti depressants are also something I don't plan on ever touching again, but I will never deny that they were probably a piece that helped get me out of a rut in 2008. It took a lot of trial and error though and these things can do things to your system and body. I lost a lot of weight on one and wasn't eating, gained a bunch of weight back and couldn't stop eating, slept 12 hours with one, 6 with another, it's weird. But I can believe chemical imbalances are a thing.
My starting suggestions though would be to get physically active if you're not. I've been doing DDP Yoga for awhile now which requires nothing but a mat, so you can definitely find some stuff out there that you could do in the comfort of your zone. Keep the diet in check and eat healthy too if you're not. Clean and organize your stuff. Get off the internet. Check out guided meditations or acupuncture.Try some new things out. Use a calendar and planner to keep notes and track progress or set dates for things. Keep up small steps and after awhile you'll wonder how you got so far ahead! I'm iffy on goal setting, but it probably helps other. It's all about living in the now for me lately! You're not alone dude. You might hate hearing that or hearing that from people in person, but it never hurts to hear from others, a therapist, etc and their perspective on how they see you about things you may never consider or notice. Never hurts to consume that wisdom and take your own spin on it to improve and grow more in life. I was really stubborn about outside interference but that's kind of how I see it now, thirst for those outside perspectives so you can continually learn and expand. YOU HAVE THE POWER!
lol sorry if that was a bit much.
Something cool I heard on a podcast lately about loneliness... if you start slipping into that rut, start serving others. Speaking for myself here, but I think a lot of people tend to look inwards, bottle things up, and crave others when we're lonely, instead we should probably take the focus off ourselves and look outward to help and be around others which then in turns fuels yourself! But hey preaching to the choir on this one haha, easier said than done...
Christopher Rush, one of the original MTG artists passed away yesterday. He is best known for the iconic Black Lotus and original Lightning Bolt, as well as the designer of the mana symbols.
. At least I got a year out of them but it's going to suck till I get a replacement in since my PC runs pretty loud. Luckily the Creative Fatal1ty which is my regular go to is on yet another $20 sale 
. This will be my third set really like them and they drop to $20 all the time. Tried the second version once but the adjustable plastic above the ear phones tends to snap after about half a year. Anyways grabbing two sets this time so I have a back up when I inevitably screw up the next one.
I'm starting to wonder if I should see a psychiatrist or therapist rather than a counselor, although it may just be that we haven't gotten to the root of my problems yet. My "homework" this week is to lightly snap myself with a rubber band every time I put myself down, think negatively about myself, or defer a compliment. My wrist started bleeding tonight. Of course, it might just be a sign of what my problems are, I'm not sure.
One of my professors passed away today. I had yet to get to know her well, but from what I did know, at what others are saying, this has been a big loss for her family, her friends, and the university. This leaves what will happen to out class up in the air.
